Summer Countdown... Starts.... Now

After an emotionally exhausting, while still excellent year at that, I am happy to say that at 9pm tonight it will finally all come to an end and summer will come at last.


The night starts here
The night starts here
Forget your name
Forget your fear - Stars

A Quote by Neil Gaiman

It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore... It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips- you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that.

The Eye, the Toilet and the Drugs

bandrubber says: (1:39:33 PM)
how's the eye ps

anon says: (1:40:17 PM)
eyelash is still in there

bandrubber says: (1:40:25 PM)
weird

bandrubber says: (1:40:29 PM)
maybe go to the walk in clinic lol

anon says: (1:40:36 PM)
lol
anon says: (1:40:51 PM)
im afraid it will develop some sort of mold around it if its in there for too long

bandrubber says: (1:41:00 PM)
so go
bandrubber says: (1:41:02 PM)
they'll flush it

anon says: (1:41:17 PM)
in the toilet? i still need my eye

bandrubber says: (1:42:37 PM)
true

anon says: (1:43:38 PM)
u give doctors too much credit, they are not gods

bandrubber says: (1:43:58 PM)
they give me free drugs

anon says: (1:45:46 PM)
touche

Title-Less

Because it's more fun to create art than to study... YAY for photoshop!

I love PostSecret

I hope so too.

Death Cab For Cutie

Can't wait for the new album!!

The Best Things in Life are Free(ish)

The best little things that make life worthwhile (sometimes)

- it got hard past the 40s, but I was determined to hit 101

1. music
2. chocolate
3. laughing so hard you start to cry
4. snuggling
5. baking
6. a good book
7. love
8. driving alone in the middle of the night, with music blaring
9. singing in the shower
10. good conversations that last all. night. long.
11. rainbows, sunrises, sunsets
12. mindless television
13. the symphony
14. mint chocolate chip ice cream
15. burning candles
16. wine
17. stars
18. bubble baths
19. success
20. fluffy clouds
21. summer
22. long walks on the beach (couldn't resist)
23. outdoor concerts
24. camping, 'the great outdoors'
25. daffodils
26. friends that are there for you always, even when you fuck up
27. falling asleep to the sound of a thunderstorm
28. puppies
29. a paycheck
30. lazy nights with someone you care about
31. best friends
32. art, painting
33. history
34. running
35. purple!
36. traveling
37. finishing the last exam
38. people watching
39. the zoo
40. having your dreams come true, even if only for a while
41. finding out something new about someone
42. the first blooming flowers of spring
43. dancing like you just don't care
44. making up
45. vacations
46. learning something new
47. the office (the show, not actual work)
48. seeing friends or family for the first time in a long time
49. buses that are on time and leave on time
50. plays
51. taking photos
52. chocolate covered strawberries
53. happy childhood memories
54. random evenings of random fun
55. butterflies
56. good sleeps
57. good hair days
58. twister
59. bonfires, roasting marshmallows
60. random phone calls from friends
61. finding out someone's been thinking of you
62. family (there are exceptions)
63. a clean room
64. birds chirping
65. scrubs marathons
66. swimming late at night
67. robin williams
68. successfully teaching yourself something new
69. finding out your favourite band has a new album coming out [and a concert]!! (like I just did!!!!) YAY
70. love letters
71. awkward first kisses
72. getting dressed up
73. perfect, sunny weather days
74. natural highs
75. walking barefoot in the grass and in the sand
76. apple/macs
77. writing
78. achieving a goal
79. tattoos
80. walking around a la birthday suit when nobody's home
81. lunch dates with friends
82. SuShI
83. adventures
84. collages
85. allergy meds
86. foreign accents
87. gardens
88. teddy bears
89. Halloween
90. peanut butter chocolate chip cookies
91. winning a debate or a bet
92. McDreamy and McSteamy
93. massages

94. having all the socks you started with before doing laundry come out of the dryer

95. colour changes of leaves
96. blueberry and apple cinnamon tea
97. banana pancakes a la chocolate chips
98. bunnies
99. Zach Braff
100. after a rainstorm/ the smell and the first glimpse of sun
101. living in the moment. carpe diem.


Feel free to comment on what I've left out!

A Movie Script Ending

//Now we all know the words were true in the sappiest songs (yes, yes). I'll put them to bed, but they won't sleep, they're just shuffling the sheets, they toss and turn, (you can't begin to get it back).//

The cynic inside of me thinks it's time to have a negative Disney movie be made, without a fairytale ending. Once upon a time... they didn't live happily ever after... the end.

Happily ever after movies raise the bar for over expectations in the real world that are rarely met.

Sure these movies do serve their purposes. They make us feel warm and fuzzy inside for about the two hours that we watch them for. But then they finish, and reality returns. And then what? We sit there pondering after an impossible fantasy world. Life is messy and it's time that Disney movies, and romantic comedies in general, acknowledge this - instead of showing off false perceptions of reality.


After all, sometimes the Wicked Witch does conquer all.

(But then again I suppose I'll never stop believing the romantic comedy dream. Maybe, one day?)

A Story Excerpt; from me to you, with love

Chapter 8: Oops and the Caterpillar


Leila looked back the next day on her adventures of wine. She also realized she had made a complete ass of herself, as she noticed in her diary a tad of a ramble in her handwriting that she had no recollection of writing. She apparently even titled her life that evening as All Dressed Up and Nowhere to Go. There was what appeared to be a random guy’s name written in her diary with hearts all over it. However, she did not recognize the name, or the writing for that matter. And, her bed was empty. Confused and with her brain feeling like it was shattered, she crawled out of bed – her very empty bed (even emptier now that she wasn’t in it).
Leila then proceeded to look out the window and saw what looked like ten thousand feet of freshly fallen slow. Now, Leila wasn’t the biggest fan of snow, in fact it was her dream to live somewhere someday where snow was completely foreign. However, she felt a huge urge to go and jump in the giant snow hill hidden behind her home. So out of her house she ran, in her birthday suit since she had just jumped out of bed, and out into the snow mound.
After Leila remembered how cold snow actually was, she came back inside and much to her surprise she found a big caterpillar on her kitchen table. Leila found this pretty odd considering it was winter and all.

As time goes by

April? Already? For real??

And there's still snow outside? Why? WHY? Why call it spring if half of it's winter, anyways.


.Raindrops keep falling on my head.

p.s. leave the seals alone, they're cute